Saying goodbye to you was especially hard today. I know I’ll see you again in a few days but just the thought of that having you when I want you, to hear you, to just be in your presence whenever I want is just wow- I don’t even have a word for what I feel. I feel so empty and sad and I just want to run back to your arms. I swear that the second I left your arms I felt cold. My body honestly felt cold and empty. I never thought I could feel this way. I just love you so much and I wish I didn’t have to be away from you. I just hope all goes well and I recover because right now I just feel like crying.
Cooking dinner with my boyfriend’s mom and her including me in the immediate family when she was talking about thanksgiving made today a even better day. Making dinner for the family and being considered part if it means a lot to me and I’m glad we shared such a nice moment
“Have you ever noticed that humans have made it so difficult and complicated to “survive” in this world? It’s a vicious cycle. You go to school, and try really hard, so that you can get into a good college, and then you try really hard at college to get a good job, and then you try really hard at your job, so you can make money. And then your kids do the same thing. And everyone just keeps on doing this and no one even stops to think WHY they’re doing it any more. Everyone just does it because it’s what you’re supposed to do. And like, before, when the human race had just started, the goal was to just SURVIVE. People just lived. I mean, that’s what really matters, right? Survival. Because after you die, it doesn’t matter what college you went to.”—Dylan, my 12 year old brother (via metaphorically)